Sick and Tired~

Hey! :) 

Sooo, I am having troubles lately. First of all, I am having a difficult time, or at least a tricky enough time, putting full faith in God to let Him work everything out. I am confused about Him, still, mainly. Oh, I study His Word daily, and I understand most of it, but how does a true Christian like me put full trust in Him? I want to so badly, but most Christians know how it is when doubts are constantly there, or get there, at least, if a bad thing occurs. So, please pray for me and my faith. 

First and foremost, however, please pray for my family. I'm not sure the most I can put out on here without them seeing, but let's just say that things aren't feeling well lately. Everybody is too busy, for one thing, and for another, I worry about my parents' marriage, and our family's whole faith in the Lord. These days, it seems or feels that I have more faith than anyone else. That's just too sad, and we have other personal troubles that stay at the back of my mind. Besides that, my birthday is coming up at the end of June, and I fear it may be nonexistent to my family. I'm turning 21. That day is going to mean far more to me than most of you probably realize. It has nothing to do with the fact that from that day on, I can legally drink, not that I want to, I'm not that thrilled about it. In my opinion, the drinking age should be 25. But anyway, turning 21 means that it's going to be another reminder that I'm an adult, that the days of college are closing in on me, that soon I'll be all on my own, and how scary is that? 

I work hard, and I study hard at school. But when it comes to going home at the end of the day--which makes sense lately since I'm working plus taking summer courses, two--something feels giant, like an aching hole inside me that I can't seem to place. Maybe it's just that I feel my years on numbered at finding true love. I try  hard to believe harder daily that God has my man out there somewhere for me. :) I seem to have more faith in that these days with Him than anything else, but I am trying my very hardest, and He knows I am. Most of the time, I guess, it's just hard. 

My hope and prayer is that you might help me figure something out. If not, God bless. Hope conquers everything, besides faith first and foremost, and I will continue to deeply believe that. No matter what happens in our family, and no matter what does or doesn't change. 

Thanks for reading. :) Ta! for now, 

JMG~

Summer Stupid School~

Hey, y'all,

Sooo, I have to read "The Taming of the Shrew," a Shakespearean play out of a book the thickness the size of my hand. Anyway, I do not understand the course, so I'm hoping that through the Lord's will, the professor may be able to give me a heads-up on what to do. I knew having an English-Writing major wasn't always going to be easy, but so far, this has been the hardest Eng. course I've taken. And that is saying something. Every semester I think that a class is going to be harder than all the rest I've taken, but that never happens. I always get through them with good grades, and if the Lord wills, I will continue to. I don't understand the point of being called on in class, however. What IS the point? Just to gain insight from students? What if you don't know the answer to the question? You can't just say "pass" or "I don't know." For most professors, it has to be a particular reason WHY I don't know, which is pathetic. A professor is supposed to help the student, not embarrass them. I'm not saying that they don't help. It just seems to be both most of the time, at least in my world. 

My other class of business ethics is honestly more calming than the shakespearean class so far. Maybe it's because I seem to understand that one  better, or maybe it's because I don't need the course for my major and am just taking it to get a second summer course. I need to work that's why, and if I don't take at least two classes in the summer, there's no work and no financial aid. So this is where I am. 

In the mean time, at home, the puppy is chewing up flowers, we know there's a kitten, but unsure where, my cat keeps wandering away from home and coming back off and on cuz he's afraid of a superior kitty, and there just seems to be too much arguing in the house lately. I don't know, maybe it's just me, but it's come to the point where I can't stand it, and seek solace in God and friends, and animals. I was thinking of going to graduate school after I graduate this spring, but I think the shakespearan professor said that that course might be similar to graduate courses, and I don't want to waste time and money if I'd have to work too hard. There's nothing wrong with working hard. I'm not saying that there is. What I'm saying is that I have to decide what God wants, or rather, discover what he wants, and then go for it. It'll be in my best needs, always in His plan, so we'll just have to see,  I guess. In the meantime, please keep my family and I in your prayers and thoughts. I'd very much appreciate it, thanks. :) 

Ta! for now, 

JMG~ :)   

Easter Weekend~

Hey, y'all!

Now that the flood problems in the mid-west are pretty much over, it's time to face Easter break. I don't get Good Friday or Good Monday off, which is a real bummer, since aren't those days supposed to be respectable holidays? Jesus Christ rose from the dead, for goodness sakes! It is definitely an occasion worth to be remembering, and I guess people don't get that. 

Anyway, I'm not only excited to go home this weekend because of Easter, or because of the time spent with family and animals. I'm also excited, because for the first time in my rabbit Maggie's four-year-old life, she is getting a brand new hutch. One where she will not need to hide, where there will be a lot more light, and where she could live a healthier and happier life. Pet rabbits are supposed to live up to twelve years, after all, and I think that a new hutch could definitely lengthen her life, and make her a happier little bunny. 

Maggie is a gray, Mini Rex rabbit of four years old. Her mother, Dusty died two years ago from what I thought maybe was old age. But Maggie is so sweet, and the hutch she's living in now doesn't give as much light, and is more closed in. At least with this new hutch, she'll have a cleaner atmosphere, too, since I'm worried about the wood on her old hutch rotting. It was handmade from my dad a couple years ago, but I'm afraid some things don't last forever. So God willing, when I get home there will be a new hutch waiting for my one and only bunny. She deserves it. My mom was supposed to pick one up for me, and I'd pay her back later. 

But since we're on the topic, and I am bored at work, let me explain more about my rabbit. One thing is that she is a biter, but only when she's nervous. It has taken me years to trust my rabbits that they won't freak out. It has taken them years to trust me. Oh, Maggie trusts me for the most part, and she knows who I am. I know how to hold rabbits and all that, but sweatshirt and gloves are most appropiate with picking her up, and I haven't in a while, so hopefully it'll be as easy as possible. Sometimes I have to ask my sisters how to pick them up properly, because I forget. I took Maggie to the fair, and she's a blue ribbon rabbit. She's also earned me money before. 

Maggie is quite different from the other rabbits, my sisters' and cousin's, on our small ranch besides sheep, chickens, two dogs and some barn cats. She is very adorable, though. She is very sensitive about other people's voices and touches. She zips away from the main part of the hutch very fast. But when it's me or my mom, who takes care of her when I'm away, she feels a lot better. She doesn't even mind when I pet her, and her favorite places is on the head, over the ears, and along the back. She is an adorable rabbit, and God willing, she will be a lot happier in her new home. Wish us luck, and have a great Easter weekend, everybody! :) 

Ta! :) 

JMG~

Back from Spring Break~

Hey, y'all,

So I'm back from Spring Break. A break that wasn't the most fun, but hey, I got to spend some time with my family, and a lot of time with my animals. My lambs, Jada and Nettie, are getting so big. I miss them so much. Our puppy, Bella, is hardly a puppy anymore. She's about five and a half months old. I will get pics on here of her as soon as I can. She loves to distract you from pulling hay for the sheep, and follows you everywhere. She loves hanging out with the kitties, too, which is odd, but half the time they like her, too.
My cat Dally is the same, although he waits for me more often now. Same with my sheep ewe, Sarah. She is busy with being with her friend ewes, though. On Friday, I cleaned the whole granary so that if the sheep ever got out again, it would be easy getting them back inside. I'm also planning in buying my rabbit Maggie a new hutch, one where she will have more light and won't be so shy. I hope it'll work, because she'll have nowhere to hide, really, this way. And she doesn't like anybody except me and my mom, who feeds her while I'm gone away at college.
As for Holly, our small dog, she lets Bella chase her around, and she keeps getting wet and muddy. It's bad, but she's still as lovable as the rest of them are. She loves to follow you, too, and I seem to be the only one who isn't annoyed by it at our house.
I did a lot of cleaning over spring break, and catching up. I spent a lot of time studying the Bible, with God, and writing. I finished two books writing, and am halfway done in a book I was reading. I also spent time with my grandma next door, and she's always fun.
I am thinking of taking a self-defense course that's free at the college. I hope that'll be fun, just in case I ever need to use the techniques. I pray and hope strongly that I will not, that the only time I can use it is to get my cousins back for pouncing on me in the past.
Anyway, I'm writing a series right now about six brothers who live on a farm together. It's going pretty well, actually. The only problem is how long to make them all. I don't want them to be the type of books you can easily read in two days if you had a lot of spare time or anything.
I also want to try more hobbies. Hopefully I can get going on some of them soon. A good friend once told me that to make your life better and happier, the best thing to do besides following God's will is sticking to the good things, and taking good care of yourself that way. I thought about that a lot in the past couple days. I definitely hope that my perspective of going home whenever I want will be more optimistic, yet I'm still waiting for God to lead me in the right direction in this one.
Your prayers are needed, please. Also, pray for those in the midwest flooding crisis. I'm thinking of helping to sandbag.
TTYL! Ta!

JMG~

LAST LAMBS~

Hello!

Between Valentine's Day night and the fifteenth, we had our last set of twin lambs. Two boys. It's sad that lambing season is already over with, but we had fun. 

I will get pics on here as soon as possible! 

In total, we've had 13 lambs born: 8 boys and 5 girls. 

Boys: Jasper, Emmett, Carl, Eddie, Jake, Charlie, and the final set of twin boys.

Girls: Kaylee, Jada, Nettie, Alice and Jamie.

*My lambs are Jada and Nettie, from ewe Sarah.

*Jasper and Emmett are from ewe July, Carl and Eddie from Yo-Yo, Jake and Jamie from Medora, Charlie and Alice from Keyley, Kaylee from Velvet, and the last two from Chloe.

During the week when I attend college, I get a bit lonely in missing my ewe and my little lambs. I'm nearly twenty-one years old now, and it's so cool how one could love family and animals so much. I especially love God and thank him every day for these wonderful blessings in my life.

Better go. I have a cough I'm trying to get rid of, and for some reason, when I type, it influences the tickle in my throat. 

Ta!! :) 

JMG~

LAMBS!!! :)

Hello, everybody! Guess what? My sheep ewe, Sarah, had twin girls yesterday around four o'clock in the afternoon! God willing, I will go home today to see them. I am so excited! Their names are Jada and Nettie. Nettie is short for Serenity. Pretty names, huh? Well, I told Sarah before I left that I was proud of her and would be praying for her. I think there were extra prayers, too, because since Jan. 18th we have had wonderful and healthy lambs. One ewe, July, had twin boys, and another ewe, Velvet, had a girl two days ago. 

I am always astonished year by year of how each mother ewe cares for her lamb or lambs. They are either angrily or scared-for-their-baby protective, or they might not care if someone holds one of her lambs. In a couple cases, we could hardly be in the pen for very long. And we have had all sorts of lamb experiences. We had an adorable blind lamb, we had the tiniest twin boys you have ever seen, we've had huge lambs, we've had one huge lamb and a tiny lamb as its brother. We have to pull at least one every once in a while, and it seems like there's one every year. There hasn't been so far, and God willing, there won't be any more. 

As the lambs grow, they get wilder so you have to tame them down and spend time with them as much as possible. When I mean wild, I mean they like to run around a lot and drive Mama crazy by wondering where they are. We've had a lamb with a very fast heartbeat, and bottle lambs galore. One year we had a ewe who had a lamb but didn't want it. We have ewes who don't have milk right away even after they've cleaned themselves. We've had ewes who have almost gotten into fights with other ewes, dogs or kitties because they're protective of their babies. Last year, one ewe had a huge baby, and she would freak out if he disappeared behind her! She had to know where he was every instant. Which is endearing, really. We often need to help the mama dry them off right after they are born, and then they're cold, so after letting them nurse a while we slip them inside your coat. This isn't the easier thing to do in the world, because their legs are so long and slip down. Once they are warm, they will find more strength to reach the utter. 

Ewes that haven't had babies yet love to stick their noses in the fence from the other side and watch the lambs. When we had our first lambs this year, the ewes were so excited. You wouldn't believe how excited dogs and even kittens get, too, at seeing the lambs. 

Lambing season is always fun. Well, we have five more ewes who are expecting soon. In a few days we will move the other ewes and their lambs, if need be for some of them, and start the process over again. Keep praying for them! And thanks so much for all your prayers! :) 

Ta! God bless! 

JMG~~