Monday, June 29, 2009

Happy Birthday to Me~

Hey y'all, 
It's my birthday today, and you know what means? A somewhat boring day, and saying a million thank-yous to those wishing me a happy birthday. I enjoy that very much, and it makes the day a lot brighter, especially when it feels strange to be a year older. 
Right now I actually don't have any exciting book ideas. I'm just typing and re-editing books I've written years ago in notebooks. I'm eating lunch at work now, and it's a bag of Doritos Cool Ranch chips, a peanut butter sandwich on grain bread, a CapriSun Fruit Punch, and a Nature Valley Sweet and Salty Nut Almond bar. Fun, fun. Oh, and I'm getting my haircut today. Birthday haircut, birthday style. I'm thinking of getting it cut to an inch to a half an inch off my shoulders. I haven't had it that short in a while, and it might be fun to straighten every day. I'm cutting my bangs again, too, because I like my bangs. Plus, my hairdresser, when I called her the other day for an appointment, asked me to bring a copy of one of my books so she can read it, and I'm hoping the one I'm giving her will brighten her world. 
In the mean time, it'll be a normal birthday. I'm turning twenty-one today, but that doesn't mean I'm going to go to any parties or clubs. I'd rather the drinking age be 25 or 30, in my opinion. Turning twenty-one isn't that big of a deal to me, it's just a number. I matter incredibly too much to the Lord to even think of seriously drinking. Besides, I've seen problems with drinking happen with people before, and that is never going to happen to me. I will be darn sure of it. 
It's a busy week for my family, so we won't have our "birthday party" thing goings on until Wednesday evening. It doesn't really feel that exciting of a party, because I'm really not a kid anymore and shouldn't have any more parties like those. Should I? Send me your comments to tell me what you think, please. Anyway, Mom said she'll make me my birthday supper of homemade macaroni and cheese and fried chicken. My dad doesn't like mac and cheese, so we'll probably have to choose something extra for him. We'll also having chocolate cake, and whoop-dee-do. 
Thanks for any birthday wishes you may wish for me. I hope to have a great day! 
Ta for now!! 

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Sick and Tired~

Hey! :) 
Sooo, I am having troubles lately. First of all, I am having a difficult time, or at least a tricky enough time, putting full faith in God to let Him work everything out. I am confused about Him, still, mainly. Oh, I study His Word daily, and I understand most of it, but how does a true Christian like me put full trust in Him? I want to so badly, but most Christians know how it is when doubts are constantly there, or get there, at least, if a bad thing occurs. So, please pray for me and my faith. 
First and foremost, however, please pray for my family. I'm not sure the most I can put out on here without them seeing, but let's just say that things aren't feeling well lately. Everybody is too busy, for one thing, and for another, I worry about my parents' marriage, and our family's whole faith in the Lord. These days, it seems or feels that I have more faith than anyone else. That's just too sad, and we have other personal troubles that stay at the back of my mind. Besides that, my birthday is coming up at the end of June, and I fear it may be nonexistent to my family. I'm turning 21. That day is going to mean far more to me than most of you probably realize. It has nothing to do with the fact that from that day on, I can legally drink, not that I want to, I'm not that thrilled about it. In my opinion, the drinking age should be 25. But anyway, turning 21 means that it's going to be another reminder that I'm an adult, that the days of college are closing in on me, that soon I'll be all on my own, and how scary is that? 
I work hard, and I study hard at school. But when it comes to going home at the end of the day--which makes sense lately since I'm working plus taking summer courses, two--something feels giant, like an aching hole inside me that I can't seem to place. Maybe it's just that I feel my years on numbered at finding true love. I try  hard to believe harder daily that God has my man out there somewhere for me. :) I seem to have more faith in that these days with Him than anything else, but I am trying my very hardest, and He knows I am. Most of the time, I guess, it's just hard. 
My hope and prayer is that you might help me figure something out. If not, God bless. Hope conquers everything, besides faith first and foremost, and I will continue to deeply believe that. No matter what happens in our family, and no matter what does or doesn't change. 
Thanks for reading. :) Ta! for now,